Today is the last day of sch.. but i am not happy at all, cos i am very sianz now. How?? no work, no $$, no food 2 eat, eat grass lor. Haiz.. from monday nitez till wed nitez, got nightmare. 3 nitez of nightmares all on that 'man'. Argh.. wad happened?? why he keep huanting me? when i no longer thought of him, why does he still haf to haunt me in my dreams? 'fang guo wo ba!!'
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10:07 PM
Today is monday. another 10 more lesson before my holidays started. last sunday, i had a conversation with him. he left me because he wans me to be happy despite of still loving me. i got very disappointed with him. 2 years of relationship, instead of solving the proble, he choose to gave up. what is this?? act noble?? its so simple? why the hell u gonna make things so complicated. see the way u're acting like somebody else, get to me frustrated! been pondering for the entire week abt this. but i think no point. he won be back anyway. even if he does, i cant. got so moody becos of this. till i teared in front of my student last week when his chair knock onto my hands. not painful. just blue black till not. but i teared.
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5:32 PM
Wa.. its been some time since i last touch this blog. Did u guys miss me?? hmm.. recently, there is this guy in RP falling for me. What's amazing is, he's 1 year younger than me. also dunno understand what makes him for for me, when i'm older then him. he said i'm smart, funny, and got lots of crap, but dunno when u crap and when not to crap. Rejected him le, but still calls me. Argh.. i think God really has a plan for each one of us. he puts me in Biomedical Science course, which i hate this course initially. But i think now i'm in love with science. quite fun and interesting.. my mom got the medical result le. Thank God, its non cancerous. stupid doctor anyhow scare me!! better watch out!! *heave a sigh of relieve* life is full of uncertainties. i also dunno what i wan to do after poly. but i'm very determind to go univfersity. i wan to go to Harvard University!! haha.. so far scored 4 As for my daily grade liao. wa.. jia you!! my fac say i like to smile. every time he saw me, he found me smiling. wahaha.. continue with this kind of lifestyle ba. this is the kind of life i wan to live, instead of keep dwelling into my depression of him. I think its also a kind of blessing in disguise that Zhong Wei left me 4 months ago. ya, my student failed his maths paper with 42%, but scored 70% for his language papers. As ezpected he will fail his maths. A very smart, yet lazy boy. he really lazy until, expect me to give him every answer on his maths homework. i was so angry that, i gave him all the ans, without him having to do anything. but i got explained to him how i derive the answer. but he din bother to listen. i have already done my best as a teacher liao.
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11:44 AM
Hey, one week had passed, and how u guys?? my mom is recovering now. thankz for all ya concern. now waiting for her report, whether it cancerous. today is wed. Monday, culture module. i one man show on the floor. think its a nice one. tuesday, pon school. reach sch liao, then decided to run away with my friend. went to orchard Swensen to eat American breakfast. very nice. there's fruit juice, fruits, croissant, danish pastry, i got omelette for my main course with bacon and ham and lastly a tea. A very scumptious and nice breakfast. make me full the whole entire afternoon. this morning just had my UT( understanding test). i think should be able to pass, hopefully a B or an A. Wa liew, recently very tired. i gonna quit my teaching soon on my student. Gonna find another student. really cant stand him liao.. very naughty. no energy to scold him liao..
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7:43 PM
Just came back. i'm so tired. really very tired. also dunno why. Today, i din go to school. wakes up at abt 9 plus. mom is going for an operation today, at her breast's lump. suppossingly, my sis and i were going to accompany her to the hospital, but she last mintute din go. so i went to Singapore General Hospital with mom. We were late. Reached there and registered at about 2pm. After that, she went in to change to hospital clothes and i waited outside. she was pushed into the operation theatre by 3pm, but i din get to accompany her during the period when she was being sent in to the operation theatre. i waited outside alone, patiently. i found myself shivering. Firstly, its very cold there. but after wearing my jacket, i was still shivering. cos i am really very scared and worried for her. i prayed continously that she won be facing any complications during the surgery and she be able to come out safe and sound. whole surgery took one hour plus, when the stupid surgeon say its only a half an hour surgery. can u imagine, when she's already so skinny, and she still have to undergo all this pain. she din say that she's scared, but i know that she's very scared.
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11:23 AM
Something i once worried, has just happened onto me. suddenly feel so tired. i dunno when is the day, where i will collapse one day. my mummy is suspected of dignosing breast cancer. once, i heard the news, i almost fainted on to the floor. What happened?? i really dunno wad to do next. i'm really very scared. really. will somebody out there understand how i feel now?? i dun wan to lose my mummy so soon. i love my mummy. i really do.
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11:37 PM
First week of 2nd semester had past very quickly, and today is sunday. this whole entire 5 days of sch really drained me. i'm so tired. and i actually fall sick on the third day of sch, which is wed. think i din have enough sleep and i was caught in the rain, and went straight into my class, which is so cold, like north pole. caught a cold, sore throat and cough. until now still haven recover, but feel better le. hope i'll recover fully soon. think should be able to adapt by next week. getting my pay next week, so happy, and go and spend money again. going to broke soon. haha.. this whole entire week also very busy, by the time i reached home is already 10, by the time is sleep is already 12. so tiredzz.. suddenly feel like cutting my hair short, but scared turn out to be not nice. till now still haven reply my message, cos i wan it to be neutral. ph value 7. but whatever i typed, it sounds like there is a bit of scarcasm and double meaning. haiz.. also dunno what to do. maybe, until now i still cant forget and forgive. anyway, its not going to affect me, becase of my busy lifestyle. i have my friends and my loved ones and of cos God. Everything will be fine soon since everything is over.
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10:58 AM